Trusting works! I say this because I’m following up the blog of yesterday. The production yesterday went as smoothly as any other and the audience said over and over it was the best Christmas production they’d ever witnessed. To God be the Glory! As I would begin to go into “my panic–control” and rehash every line I was to say, I reminded myself to trust. Every line was there and I just didn’t need to worry about it. I even had a moment to tell our director how God had used her prayer the day before to teach me a lesson in TRUST.
Today all of the angst of the past many weeks is fading. But, I don’t want to simply rejoice that it is done and move past. There were some big lessons God wants me to keep in my daily living while I continue to trust Him in ways I’ve not done before. I know this is “one day at a time, one moment at a time” (as stated in The Serenity Prayer). From this point forward I’d like to put this trust into place as I approach new, challenging items in life rather than having to learn to trust while going through them–whatever they may be.
What a wonderful GOD we get to serve!
I have lived for December 3rd to get here since last July when I was given the script for this Christmas musical. Today completes it. Now that it is here and I’ve lived through all of the practices and the angst of getting prepared, I had to ask God to forgive me for my attitude during most of this time. He has taught me many lessons and this last one is definitely one which I never want to lose.
In the process of living life I have lived with a belief that I am insufficient. (We all are within ourselves, but my belief of me went far beyond this insufficiency). I may do some things well, but that would be because I got lucky. Most of the time I blunder and have to bury it, redo it, etc. I’ve learned to pray for Jesus to not only take the lead, but to literally be in front of me so I am following up His Work. This way I wouldn’t be blundering. Last night as we were preparing to walk to the sanctuary for the program’s start, our director prayed that Jesus would “help” us complete our part to His Honor and Glory. I said in my head that I didn’t want His help, I wanted Him in front so I could simply follow His lead. I wanted far more than just “help”. The program began and all of this got lost in the production, (which did go well).
This morning Jesus wasn’t through with my needing to be awakened. He brought me back to our director’s prayer. He said that He didn’t intend to be in front, His Light (SPIRIT) was there and He wanted me to TRUST His Light. I’ve wanted to see Jesus Himself in front so I could be dependent on something “more secure”. His Light is sufficient when I TRUST. I can know this because that sense of “peace that passeth all understanding” confirms it. I can sense this peace when I take this step of TRUST. Today, in this last production, I’m going to TRUST!
The first program presentation is past. Just as God wants, the people laughed abundantly, shed tears and found tremendous JOY in the production. It felt good to know this and hear it from the halls where we waited for our next entrance. As I sat down with my coffee to start my journaling this morning I wanted to write–only two more times and then it’s done. However, Jesus had a different message He wanted me to hear from Him. It was, “It is time to lift your eyes from yourself and see my greater purpose for this program.”
When I wrote this message down I knew God wanted me to awaken to the truth that His new creations do not need to focus on “protecting” themselves. I have been allowing myself to live in that victim mentality. Yes, learning to live as a new creation–knowing as well as believing–is learning to trust. The preparations are over. It is time now to live in the purpose of the program, trusting God to complete what He inspired someone to write–letting people see a genuine Christmas program that brings honor and glory to our Savior and Lord–Jesus Christ–Son of the Most High GOD!
When I’m with folks and they are complaining about life in general I try to change the focus somehow. I have never enjoyed complaining. Then, these past few days take place where I am starting my mornings with complaining. The complaints aren’t about life in general, it’s about me. I want to be stronger than I am. I don’t want to look like flesh, yet I am. There is only one GREAT I AM and that will never be me, it is God Almighty who called Himself the Great I AM.
There is nothing that brings out my insecurities like this Christmas program does. Putting myself in front of others to perform brings out voices I’ve lived with all of my life. Tonight is the start of the actual performance. I recognize each morning that my earthly self wants to run and tell the director to get someone else! Yet, God is wanting me to learn an important lesson. I’ve always wanted to be a good student, but in this case, the lesson is TOUGH! These insecurities are deep rooted. Just writing this makes me face this truth. I need to surrender this and will do so. I know and believe I am a new creation. I’m also going to PRAISE GOD for the lesson. I don’t want to live in this fear any longer. I can be nervous without this fear. Dad’s voice/messages are lies that Satan wants to torment me with and I give them to my GREAT HEALER–JESUS CHRIST!
As I got to the rehearsal last night, our director complimented me for having all of my parts down. Well, of course, as last night took place, I got to a line where my mind was blank–what do I say here??? So much for having it down! One just can’t be too confident.
It seems to be a daily thing that I need to be refocused on praising God rather than complaining to Him. I started out this morning journaling to Jesus telling Him my concerns and my weaknesses along with my selfishness. When I was done and asked Him what He wanted me to know for today, He wasn’t quiet about the reminder of praising Him instead of complaining to Him. Yesterday’s telling me this seemed to be only good for yesterday. I needed this again today. Breaking an old–very old habit of worry/angst over details out of my control and even some I don’t control well, is not easy. But, I do say that when I turn this around and praise Jesus for what He’s going to do with these details ahead of time, the angst disappears and I have this sense of assurance that all will be just fine. Let it go!
I don’t know what I’d do if God weren’t so patient with me/us. His Grace and Love are so superior to that of the world. How I love and thank Him for this!
It seems God was not done yesterday helping me to believe that I’m a new creation who believes each and every day. Last night’s rehearsal was a little over 3 hours, but it went well for the most part. The next two nights should easily bring the loose ends together. When I arose this morning I started my journaling telling Jesus I needed some help this morning. I feel wiped out and it’s just the first trial run. He reminded me that praising Him works better than complaining to Him. Praising Him falls in line with BELIEVING. My devotional stayed right on this same topic. It pointed out that picturing in my mind the beauty of what I hope for developing into fruition is what God wants me to do. Along with this, praise Him for this outcome ahead of its actualizing.
I really needed this spiritual insight. I’ve been picturing my screw-ups and dance stumbling. Instead, God is asking me to picture what I hope for. Taking a moment to do this is nothing less than fun. It takes me immediately into a mindset of–I can not only do this, it is fun too! How faithful and nurturing our God is. I PRAISE HIM this day!
Today starts the week of our Christmas program at church. These next three nights are dress rehearsals and then Thursday – Saturday are the productions. My part is not major but the angst I’ve had has been very MAJOR! It sounds silly, but it is nonetheless true. As I began my journaling this morning and confessing all of this to Jesus I found myself feeling bad for not being thankful about all of this rather than so concerned. It wasn’t until I asked Jesus what He wanted me to know for today, that He reminded me about believing.
This entire year I’ve had one major goal–Believe I’m a new creation. That first word–believe–is not to be used only as the start of being a new creation. It is to be at the start of all God provides and asks of us. Do I believe I’ll mess up or do I believe God placed me in this part to complete my piece as He wanted? Do I believe I can memorize lines and remember them at the right time? Do I believe the dance steps can be done without looking foolish? Until this morning I’ve been looking forward to this coming Sunday when all of this is behind me. Today, Jesus wants me to look forward to being part of His Story as portrayed. Along with this looking forward to it, He wants me believing I will do it just fine.
I’m not just a new creation and that’s it. I’m a new creation that no longer believes the lies fed to me and Satan wants to keep alive in me. I choose to believe this new creation is one for now and then for eternity!
It is amazing to me to work in a world of spiritual warfare as biblical counseling brings to you. One person I’m meeting with believes in God but doesn’t believe that Jesus Christ is the Son of God. He was a good human not different than other good men in the Old Testament. I know where his belief came from since I’ve know the religion he was raised in. Little did I know ahead of this counseling how much I rely on the truth that Jesus Christ is the One Great Healer. How does one find healing for his past abuse and current lies and habits when he doesn’t believe in our Great Healer? I introduced him to the true Jesus Christ yesterday and left it with the seed being planted. It pains me to find one struggling with the Greatest Truth I have to offer as a counselor.
As I went to see my niece I found that she is not worried about her relationship with Jesus. She has a trach so she can only mouth her words. Her concern is for her kids and grandkids. She wanted to know how to talk to them about accepting Jesus in their hearts? I had brought the 4-Spiritual Laws so I gave this to her. This brought a smile. That’s what she needed.
Of all the things our earthly life has to offer, there is none as great a gift as Jesus Christ. I know His Holy Spirit is working. I want to put a timeframe around this work but I do know better. I want God’s patience to be mine. TO GOD BE THE GLORY, GREAT THINGS HE HAS DONE AND IS DOING!
This morning I will start with a counseling appointment. Afterwards I’m headed to Boise with a niece to see her sister, another niece, who is in the hospital battling lung cancer. We know it is terminal and my niece does too. She is unsure about her relationship with Jesus so this morning we are going to address this so she can rest knowing Jesus didn’t leave her out of His fold.
While we were doing our shopping yesterday I got a call from my niece in California. She wanted me to know that my sis Alice, her mom, passed away yesterday morning. Alice had been peacefully declining and was very ready to be with her heavenly family for eternity. Eternity has been on my mind a lot lately knowing Alice’s time was close and knowing we were going to pray with Debbie later this morning.
God is amazingly good and patient waiting for us to know Him and understand that He is not waiting to judge us for our sin–yes, that time comes. However, God is waiting to redeem us from our sin by our accepting His Gift of Love–Jesus Christ, His Son, asking Him into our heart and accepting Him as our Savior and Lord. It is as simple as that. How much I love our Father in heaven and thank Him for the Gift of eternity with Him and our loved ones.
Yesterday was the day of thanks and today is the day of giving. In less than an hour I’ll have 4 grandsons with me hitting the Black Friday sales to get their Christmas shopping done. This is an annual event for us. I take the grandsons and Kathy takes the granddaughters along with their moms. We guys go to breakfast in the midst of the shopping and are back home by 10:00 am. The girls make much more of a day of it. Their arrival home isn’t usually until darkness has hit the day. All of us are happy this way!
There is always something to be thankful for and today it is the joy of being grandpa!