Have you ever been on a journey where FEAR was so present you kept stopping thinking this must be a mistake or you wouldn’t feel the way you do?  I have been paralyzed by fear many, many times in my life’s journey.  My growing up years taught me how to live in the future by fantasizing in my mind.  Somehow, in my adult years, when I thought I could just step out of that habit of living, I would do so and live in the present.  It isn’t that simple.  The character defect I’d developed was so embedded into habit, I didn’t even realize I was doing it.  Today, however, I’m much more awake to this.  I even sense fear as it begins to try and influence me.

This morning in my devotions there was much being said about fear.  In fact my Bible reading was stating over and over again God’s directives to the Israelites to not fear.  This was God’s message delivered by Moses in Deuteronomy.  I AM WITH YOU.  In every regard of their living God was telling them to not fear.  I can’t tell you how many times I’ve needed to learn and relearn this truth–God is with me.  In Celebrate Recovery the very first principle is about denial–stepping out of denial.  I was in total denial about how much fear gripped me and influenced me regarding so many things in my life.  I can honestly say this is far less true for me now.

Writing yesterday’s blog and stating the 6 facts was fear invoking yet I needed to tell the truth of me and what God is doing to grow me out of this fear.  I told my share group this in Celebrate Recovery last night.  The beautiful thing I am learning is the consequence of honest sharing in spite of fear.  There is no judgment or condemnation in being obedient to God’s nudging.  Even if there were an attack of Satan or man with judgment, God’s armor told about in Ephesians 6 will shield us.  I love this truth and want to live in complete honesty from this day forward.  No more secrets and no more paralysis in what I do from fear.  Praise God.