I think I must tell you that intimacy is here to stay.  I have always looked at this topic through the lens of man when all this time God has been waiting for me to see the light.  In the past few days I’ve begun to see clearly that the first intimacy we (I) build is our (my) own with God.  It looks something like complete trust.  If I trust God in all things I can be completely intimate with Him and He can be completely intimate with me for I fully trust Him.  All intimacy with man is then built accordingly to the amount of trust I have with God.

I mentioned the series yesterday about sexual purity and listening to its first dvd.  It talked about the research behind the sexual purity struggle mankind has.  Because our sex drive is primal, its root go into the limbic system of our brain.  This part of our brain operates our autonomic functions.   I am saying this because the healing that needs to take place in God’s “renewing our mind” (Romans 12: 1&2) goes clear into this part of our being.  I’m posting a quote from the research of the “Genesis Process”.  It states:

THE LIMBIC SYSTEM: Overview

The Limbic System (the heart) is negatively programmed through painful experiences with people we trusted, especially in our formative years. Not trusting or being able to bond with others leads to fear, anxiety, loneliness, isolation and self gratification. Since the heart is negatively programmed through hurtful experiences with others, it must be healed through opposite experiences.  When we can’t get our needs met from others we have to learn to self gratify. Addiction is self-gratification.  This is why recovery that heals what drives self-destructive behaviors is a process of learning to trust again. The process of trust that heals our heart usually begins with God and then people.

When those abused as children are growing into adulthood, it becomes clear why there is this addictive struggle.  I can also see clearly why intimacy has been such a life-long struggle for me.  Now that I am ready to fully trust God in all things I can trust Him to renew even this automatic response I’ve always had to intimacy–starting with Him.  I look forward to this mind renewal.

I do pray this part of the journey is helpful to you.  It is life changing for me and I’ve needed to spend this time here on the journey to get healthier before moving on.