You know you can start moving forward again when all the roadblocks are gone and the green light is looming ahead of you.  That is the way I feel this morning after the several days of “intimacy training”.  I feel as though I should say intimacy awakening.  There is something fundamental about having this clearly awakened for me.  I wrote in my journal this morning that intimacy is like a beautiful presence that has been in front of me for much of my life.  I couldn’t see it because I had so many walls built to “protect me” and that it was blocking the very gift it wanted to provide.  That gift has turned out to be the gift of trusting–fully trusting.  I’ve not ever wanted to be a non-trusting soul, but I had a huge misunderstanding of what intimacy really it.  My perverted past had me thinking intimacy was all about physical touch.  Because of the depth in which this was buried in my heart and soul, I never wanted to be touched again unless I gave permission for it.  Now that I’ve realized that it is about touch, but not so much about physical touch.  God has been touching my life throughout my life.  He has given me opportunities, friendships, family and more;  all of which touched my life enormously.  He has done this because of his intimate love for me.  I just have never understood all of this.  Now that I do I want to step right in and assist others in removing their barriers blocking their ability to see this beautiful presence.

The people of our society today are being poisoned with the thinking “I’ll do it my way.”  Somehow we have come to believe that is a good thing.  God wants us to know His way is best and it is not a dictatorial command He is giving us.  It is one of intimate understanding of His ways verses man’s way.  My ways are selfish.  God’s ways are selfish too, but God doesn’t work with a limited deck like I do.  He is God all-knowing, I am man with very limited knowing.  Why wouldn’t I want this Intimate God to be my Lord and King?

This morning as I surrendered this day to God’s leadership in my life I felt that “peace that passeth all understanding”–Philippians 4:7.  It is amazing!