I wrote yesterday’s post out of sheer obedience.  I’ve never been one to say upfront what I sense God is leading me into.  I want to get further down the road and KNOW that the sense I had is actually what God is doing–then I speak about it to others.  So, that being my nature, by the end of yesterday I was thinking thoughts like, “You fool, what were you thinking putting that out in front of anyone who would read it in the blog?”  So, this morning, during devotions, I worked on this again with the Lord.  His message didn’t change in the least.  In fact, after completing the work I’m doing today as part of my consulting work, I felt Him telling me to get my message ready for a church.  He also reminded me that when this is done, don’t try to set the time frame for it to be used.  My time frame is of human standards and His is of eternal standards.  The two have very different readiness factors.  I know me well enough that when I’m done, I expect others connected to the work I’m doing to be ready for it. That’s pretty selfish on my part. However, God is reminding me to get my readiness completed and the doors will open as He has completed the readiness of all involved.  Total surrender to God has many layers I am still learning.

Yesterday and today I’m working on a project at Boise State University with some folks there developing a tool and process for supporting special education in our school systems.  I do love this kind of work and so after a day with them yesterday I quickly want to jump into it with both feet and commit to whatever is needed long term.  However, this morning, God is reminding me that He is shifting my use of time.  So, I will see what develops from this and take it “one day at a time and one moment at a time” as I keep being reminded by the Serenity Prayer.  I want God to be 100% in control of my living out each day as my journey continues.  Even though this type of living has been my wish throughout my life, it is only now that I am awakening to how much selfishness I’ve had in submitting to God’s leadership.