Today my head is spinning with emotional unrest.  God has already, in my devotions, told me to call Him Blessed as the Psalms I was reading did.  I have done that and I recognize the truth in that.  I have much from yesterday I am struggling to know what to do with it.  Family situations, my dear friend who is wasting away from dementia, A Celebrate Recovery man who is struggling with his son’s recent admission of homosexuality, a request to begin a Celebrate Recovery at the probation center where I spoke last Sunday night and more.  I know in my head what I am to do with these–pray for them and take them one day at a time and as God shows me what to do if I’m to do anything.  Yet, each one is dear to me and my emotional side wants to jump in and be right there for each of them.

Writing this blog has brought about something else I’m not use to dealing with and that is stating my struggles like written in the first paragraph before they are resolved.  My whole life has been living in the struggles I face silently until they are resolved whether good or bad.  I then will talk about them.  However, if I’m to tell my journey each day I need to tell what is actually happening in it.  My first thought as I wrestle with these is what I already do with my time that can be rearranged.  So I think about my singing in church choir which takes each Monday night for practice.  For anyone who knows me well, know I do love singing.  However, at this point in my life is God asking me to reprioritize what I do with what He has as His priorities for me?  I do know to wait on this and see what begins to develop.

For so many years I had the bondage of my past before me and within me.  Now that this past is a ministry of purpose being used for God’s Kingdom building, I want to follow God’s leading very intentionally.  I am so grateful there are doors opening to give help.  How to give the help and which ones are the ones for me to directly do are the items of today.  God is Blessed and God is Good–this much I know and the rest I will surrender until I have a more solid lead from Him.