“This is the day the Lord has made, we will rejoice and be glad in it.” Psalm 118:24.  This verse doesn’t tell me to rejoice at the end of the day, but to do so at the beginning of it.  When God has made the day as He has each and everyone of them, I can trust His best for it.  I don’t know if I will ever get to the place where I have this truth fully embedded in my soul–the truth that living each day is all about God and His Ways, not Earnie and my ways.  I know this but my day to day living within the day doesn’t always reflect this.  One of the beautiful things I’m learning on this journey is that the new creation God has made in me allows me to come to Him with my struggles, my sins, my shame and leave it with Him.  I don’t have to carry any longer the depth of shame I use to carry that took me back to the actual sins done to me in the abuse.  Those are no longer mine in my mind.  God has fully taken that away and cleansed me of that defect of thinking.  I’m so grateful for this.

When I met with the man yesterday to give him the book he’d purchased the week before, I told him the story of the lady at the post office and that I had a book I could have given him the week before.  Somehow I needed to tell it so I could get the bondage of these actions out on the table.  I needed to see his response.  He just smiled and assured me that it was OK.

There is one thing I’m loving about journaling each morning to God the Father.  I still end the journaling with the question about what He wants me to know from Him this day.  My heart just melts when I hear His voice say:  “My son….”  I have known this conceptually most of my life.  To know it intimately is so humbly touching I can’t find words to express this gratitude.  I’m needing to stay with this process for quite a while I know and likely for the rest of my life.  He is the One True God and I want no other gods before me.  Praise the Lord.