This morning I am simply wishing I didn’t have to write.  It seems that anything I’m working with or addressing has skid marks all around it.  Nothing is moving forward.  God has already told me to trust Him and His timing.  It just awakens in me how much I need to learn about fully trusting.  It is so easy to trust when all is falling into sync.  This morning I have a meeting of the board for the Aslan Christian Academy–the boarding facility for juvenile girls who have been removed from the streets for prostitution.  We have looked at so many pieces of property and had two that were most promising declined due to the community not wanting it for fear of unknowns, etc.  All of us would like to see this project turned loose, but God is having us wait.

Have you ever tried to marginalize sin?  I have.  You take what you know is sin and try to just do some of it but not all so that it won’t be sin unless all is done–right?  Well, God is also pointing out to me that sin is sin–Earnie trying to take pieces of it and making it OK is not going to be OK.  I’ve never done this a lot, but I have done it thinking it is better than what I saw my dad do or my brother do–as though that would make my sin less than theirs.  God is awakening in me the severity of sin.  The most severe is its dulling of God’s voice, presence, His Spirit’s sensitivity within me.  These consequences are not what I want–in fact, I want just the opposite of these.  When God makes us a new creation by accepting His Son Jesus into our hearts, we have to daily remain in this new creation or we slip back into the old ways of behavior.  My journey is not done in this arena.  I suppose I’ll be saying this until my human days are done.  Now, I need to step into this day trusting.