Have you read Ecclesiastes lately?  I just finished reading through much of it this morning for my Bible reading.  I’m using The Message right now for my Bible reading and the wording in it is stark.  I’ve always known this book to be sobering but this morning it was not only sobering but it also sucks the life right out of me.  The preface to the book states that Solomon leaves to the other 65 books of the Bible to give Godly direction.  Its conclusion is that man’s life is meaningless on its own.  I’ve been, as I’ve already stated, journaling to Father God of late.  This has been its own sobering piece for me and in a good way.  However, as I stated yesterday, the ministry of Aslan Christian Academy is seemingly stuck and no matter what man (the board) does, it just stays stuck.  One member prayed yesterday for us to see this time as God preparing us for the next step.  There is simply a longer wait between the steps.  For me it feels like I’m in quicksand.  This is why Ecclesiastes is so striking this morning.  Man’s ways are just so futile when they are not completing God’s Kingdom work.  Even when they are doing just that there are these moments when man wants to move it along to his timetable–that’s me right now.  I’ve got to surrender myself and wait to see what God is doing.

I am also finding that I do this too with my relationships.  When things aren’t going as planned (in my head but not stated) I can get frustrated.  This is true whether with my children or my grandkids.  The choices being made when we get to our teen years aren’t always the best.  Boy, would I like to help out here–yet I know better.  I know that I must be reliant on God’s leadership and respond with wisdom, not quick reaction.  This ties right into what Solomon also says in Ecclesiastes.

The last thing about times like these is that I fall prey to temptation and that old belief that I can’t move forward because I’m not worthy to do so.  I also surely can’t be helping anyone with their own life for the same reason.  The old temptations to “flee to the cave” return with a vengeance.  I know better than to stay here, but the tempter is never going to give up his chance in taking advantage of these times.  I’ll be glad when more light is shed on some items, but in the meantime, I’m going to be faithful one day at a time, one moment at a time.