The voice of God, the voice of man, how does one decipher the difference?  God gives me a new creation upon my accepting Jesus Christ in my heart.  I do somehow believe the new creation is the gift of the Holy Spirit within me.  It isn’t until I quit relying on my own resources that I am more fully awake to the voice of the Holy Spirit within me.  Learning to live, see and hear in spirit rather than in flesh is a daily battle.  My flesh often wants to react to situations and I feel checked.  I think for me the hardest thing about spirit-living is surrendering my willfulness when I think my thinking and doing is best.  At times like this I don’t even check with my spirit–my old self thinking (in my mind) has always been right so why should I change at this point?  God is having me process through these times of late.  An example is a text message I got last evening from someone connected to a ministry I work with.  They had heard a  message about the ministry which had originated somehow from me.  Their interpretation was that I had been gossiping.  They were informing me that I need to be more careful with whom I talk.  The one texting me doesn’t know me well and I too don’t know them well.  I wanted to call them rather than text and say I don’t gossip.  I hate gossip.  To be accused of this is like a knife stab.  Yet, this morning I feel God’s Spirit telling me to let it go.  There will be a time when I can talk about this face to face.  Until then I know I have no ill-intent so I’ll swallow my pride and let it go.

Living in spirit intentionally as the dominant source of my life is an about face for me.  I know I’m going to need to stick with this the rest of my life and I want to.  I do pray the capability will increase and somehow I believe it will.  I know God is faithful and His Team are equally so–they being His Son Jesus and His Gift–The Holy Spirit.