Yesterday proved to be an interesting day learning about the new creation I am and how this works into my nature.  We were having company last night to celebrate a friend’s birthday.  He and his wife plus his sister visiting from out of state came over for dinner.  In the afternoon I had gone into town to my daughter’s home so she could cut my hair.  Afterwards I thought it would be nice to get him a gift.  I’m not so generous but Penny’s had great sales going.  I bought him a nice shirt I thought he’d like.  I was amazed how he seemed to enjoy this and he thanked me a couple times during the evening.  This was truly the new me listening to nudges from the Holy Spirit.

After they’d gone home I was loading the dishwasher while Kathy came in the kitchen.  Our dinner had been food she typically isn’t eating on her diet.  She was now preparing something she was going to eat which her diet allows even though she’d partook with the dinner.  I asked why she was eating more as though I were her control agent?  She told me it was allowed as though she were responsible to me.

This morning’s devotional was about repentance in the new creation.  I instantly knew I had to repent for trying to control Kathy’s eating.  The interesting piece to this and why I’m confessing this in my blog, I didn’t attach my behavior to my old self.  This is simply my new creation (which is still human) being willful and not responding to the Holy Spirit’s nudge, allowing Him to be Kathy’s agent.  I know I am not in charge of Kathy and I don’t want to be.  She and God are a good team unto themselves.  She and I are a good team when God is at the helm of us too like in last night’s dinner with friends.  I’m liking being a new creation and living in it more fully awake to what this actually means.  I have so much to learn but God is a mighty good Teacher when I’m listening to His Holy Spirit who is at my helm.