God is truly amazing.  In our pastor’s sermon yesterday he talked about God’s Name:  Alpha & Omega.  If God isn’t the beginning and the end of all I do, He isn’t my God.  In between these two places I’ve put myself or something else in God’s place.  This sermon resonated with God’s present work in my life.  All through my life I’ve put limits and walls around parts of me.  In much younger years they were done to protect me I thought.  In my working years I thought those walls not only protected me, but they also shielded me from any further abuse.  In my present time I am learning that there can be no more walls.  These walls had built caves or dark rooms where I found my own sin.  In God’s penetrating light I can see all of this so clearly now.  Instead of walls God has given me His armor.  This armor is found in the Ephesians 6:10-18.  This armor goes on the new creation God has made in me.  I had tried to put this armor on the old self which never worked because the old self was dead but I was still trying to live in him.

I find all of this so amazing!  I’ve been intentionally working on my recovery out in the open for nearly 10 years.  I’m finally getting it.  The Nature of Freedom, by Graham Cooke, is also a valuable tool in my awakening.  I had just written “remaking” instead of “awakening” in the previous sentence.  As soon as I wrote it I felt God’s Spirit nudging me with the fact that I’m not being remade, I am being awakened to the new creation He’d given me so long ago.  I was the one trying to remake me.  God is now showing me what this new creation is and how I’m to live in him.  There is so much greater freedom and peacefulness in this.  In my book, The Journey from Error to Heir, the last section is Finding Freedom.  Someday I will need to add an additional section–something like:  Living in Freedom.

To God be all Glory!