Yesterday’s entry did not happen as any reader would know.  I had to be to a breakfast meeting in town by 7:00 am for the Aslan work.  In spite of rising early, I just didn’t get it done.  That meeting was followed by another one at our church which I wanted to attend in support of Celebrate Recovery.  At that end of that meeting I was asked by our sr pastor’s wife if I could talk with her a minute.  She and her husband are putting together a weekend conference for this fall to address strongholds Satan has in people’s lives.  She asked if I’d be willing to work with them.  Of course I’m willing I said.  Then she told me the topic she’d like me to support is homosexuality.  Inside I went to my knees but I stayed standing on the outside.  I’ve talked about this influence on my life for a few years now and I’ve had a few months of living as a “new creation”.  Why would this be paralyzing?

My bible reading is in II Timothy.  This morning in chapter 3:12 it says: “Indeed all who delight in piety and are determined to live a devoted and godly life in Christ Jesus will meet with persecution.”  Joyce Meyer, the one whose Bible edition I’m reading, has a footnote with this verse.  It reads, “If we will stay standing on the inside, God will take care of the outside.  If we do what we can do, God will do what we cannot do.”

Of all the abuse: sexual, verbal, physical, I withstood growing up, the fact that the sexual was homosexual still sickens me.  Its the one thing I want to put back into denial.  In the past weeks of new creation living, this item has been fairly silent in my life.  These past few days have assured me that God is wanting me to stand with him on the inside and on the outside addressing this topic.  I can see this morning that homosexuality is a struggle and not something that owns us.  That is what Satan wants me and others to believe.  I want to be a human voice for God in this.

These past few weeks of actually living in the new creation has given me something I didn’t know could ever be possible on this earth–true freedom.  For a paralyzing moment yesterday I didn’t think I had that freedom any longer.  However, God has helped me sort through my fear and His Strength so I can see I will never live alone again.  It is in His Strength and His work I will be doing whatever He asks from this point forward.  Thank you Father, Christ and Holy Spirit.