Being a lifelong educator and gardener I find my analogies to life come mostly from these two arenas.  When a child is struggling with a difficult subject, they usually don’t tackle it with vigor.  They are usually timid about it and believe they can’t learn it.  They need one to one compassionate help to see that they can understand the subject/content but they need help personalizing the learning different than the whole class is getting.  This morning I am feeling like this is what God is giving me of late.

Learning to live as a new creation is something I’ve longed for, for years.  I didn’t know to call it a new creation.  I just wanted to be free of my past.  Little did I know the amount of work it would take to address all the beliefs I have had about myself and the world around me.  I said in yesterday’s blog that the topic of homosexuality is one I don’t relish.  I know that God is wanting me to use my story to help others with theirs–whether it is escaping from the victim side of it or from the sin side of it.  This morning and yesterday afternoon I was processing fears and more fears about it in my mind.  However, during my devotional time God has replaced those fears with His Amazing Light.  He reminded me that He is with me fully: within and around me.  What He will lead me into will be done with Him and for His purposes.  So, today I am standing inside and outside.

I just want to say that I know this topic of homosexuality is a hot one in society today.  No one loves the person that struggles with this anymore than me.  It is the simple truth that this topic is a sin nature like so many others.  Learning to live with a sin nature as a struggle rather than as an identity is what God is teaching me.  Society needs to understand this as well as each individual who has the struggle.  I am ready to help the individual, not sure what to do about our society.  This will take much more clarity from God and The Team:  God, Christ Jesus and The Holy Spirit.