I was up early today to meet with a couple of our Celebrate Recovery men.  It was amazing to sit in a restaurant and talk so openly about things that I lived all my life keeping a secret.  Now I use all of that to help others to not keep their secrets.  I always find it so amazing how God does this:  Takes our mess and make it His message.  He is an amazing God.  The one gentleman is wanting to co-lead our next step study.  He and I will do it together.  We met with his sponsor as he is still working to stay true to his own recovery and not fall prey to relapse.  God is so good in letting us help one another with things He is teaching us about the new creation we are and how to live in our new creation, not falling back into our old self habits.

Kathy is coming home today!  I think it is the first time in my life that I’ve been so looking forward to her return after being gone.  It just so happened to couple with my absence for a week and then her leaving as I returned.  There is much I want to process with her.  Some people talk on the phone to do this but I need to process face to face in order to do it well.  I even think this somehow ties to intimacy.  Processing info is important to me and I want to see the person I’m talking with.  Phone calls are fine for incidentals, but the substance of life needs a body present.

I have felt that God is taking me into deeper water of learning lately.  Learning to see where He is working so I can join Him is key.  I’ve always looked at things I’d enjoy doing or things I’m asked to do which I’d enjoy as a key element to knowing whether to do it or not.  These may still be true but the key is ensuring God is working in the activity and wants me there rather than me thinking I’m taking God into a project.  I want to do this well but it is new for me.  God is faithful all the time and I want to be more faithful in learning to follow Him and participate only where He is leading.