Today’s journey is a combination of prepping to leave again for California and simple yard work.  I suppose the yard work being done today is part of the prepping.  I like to mow my lawn right before I leave so no one else has to do it while I’m gone.  When it comes to my yard I do like to be the one doing the work.  My grandson who lives with us, Dante, is gone until Thursday so he will do some watering for me after he returns.  Other than that, it’s OK.

It is hard to walk into this week without a good deal of anxiety.  Doing the service this coming Saturday for Randy, my bother in law, makes me want to hurry everything along so it can be done.  However, I want to not be in a mindset like this so I don’t enjoy the time together with all of our family.  I certainly don’t want to have my sis and her family thinking this is a chore.  I want to be a good servant for God in this time.  Anxiety is a huge deterrent I know.  I surrender it often and so I’ll keep doing this.  Once we get there I think this will get better.  Usually the unknown is much worse than the known.

I am grateful for today.  The house is empty except for Kathy and me.  Kathy and I can have some time to talk which we need and doing all the prep for the next week’s absence can be finished.  God is always good at preparing the way.  My trust in God is spoken by me, yet my actions–worrying about details, doesn’t often reflect trust.  It is always a good reminder that God is faithful in spite of me–us.  How I love Him for this and modeling it faithfully for me.