The last couple days my journey has me butting up against some difficult areas.  The one is the Aslan Ministry which is for the sex trafficked girls and its management.  The second is a family issue that is upsetting to me.  In them God is showing me some genuine sinfulness in me called pride.  I’ve known I have pride but I’ve always looked at my own pride in comparison to my dad’s.  His pride was a major stimulus for his raging temper.  God has been showing me that my pride isn’t compared to my dad’s in His eyes.  He wants me to see mine for what it is and how it interferes with His work in my life.

In my devotions this morning I’m reading II Chronicles.  The prophets were showing the kings of Judah and Israel their prideful ways and how it interferes with their seeking God and His Ways.  That was easy for me to see for them and me.  However, it was a word picture that Joyce Meyer used that awakened me to see myself.  She told of two painters who had created two different scenes of peace.  One was a lake in the high mountains and one was a bird and its nest in a willow tree overhanging a raging waterfall.  God’s peace doesn’t remove raging storms.  His peace is present when we see God and not the storm.  Man on the other hand wants to be removed from the storm so picture one is his selfish choice.  My pride wants to remove me from raging storms or to remove the person who is causing it in my mind.  My reaction is to confront them or walk away.  God is telling me to wait on Him in the midst of these times.  See Him and believe He is doing His Kingdom Work.  He will shed light when He wants me to act.

These times are also the times when I am most vulnerable to retreating to old habits of porn–give myself a little reprieve as disgusting as it might be.  This morning God has been showing me how all this can be another step on the journey’s trail towards greater peace in the storm and greater victory from old ways.  He is such a Good Father.  I love Him.  I hope you as a reader are finding greater strength and trust from Him likewise.