I got back from the Denver trip yesterday afternoon just in time to get myself ready for last night’s Celebrate Recovery.  As the founder of Aslan and I were at the Denver airport almost ready to board, we got a call from the realtor representing us saying that the property we thought we had, had been sold out from under us and will close in 30 days.  Ordinarily I’d simply say that God didn’t want this to be the property and where do you want this Father?  Instead, I felt like I’d been slugged in the gut again.  I’ve not been on a roller coaster ride like this one–ever.  This one just keeps spinning and spinning.  Just as we finally got to where I thought we could move forward as a team with genuine team thinking and effort, the ground work must start all over.

Last Sunday’s step study lesson was the 2nd one–Powerless.  God talked to me a good deal last night about recognizing the truth of this lesson.  I am powerless to change any of these circumstances.  What I’m empowered to do is recognize it and quit trying to do this as man does.  Last night’s lesson was Relapse.  The lesson is all about equipping yourself to be ready for temptations/trials that would cause one to relapse.  I have these tools in place but I do struggle at times to initiate them like contacting my accountability when I’m tried or tempted.  This morning as I was approaching my prayer time I read what is at the top of my prayer list.  It says “new creation”.  I’ve written this there to daily remind me I am a new creation.  This morning when I saw it I told God I didn’t know how to be one.  He instantly reminded me I am one already.  These struggles/trials don’t make me less than one.

A new creation is still powerless and they understand this.  They surrender rather than “try harder”.  A new creation knows the steps to take to “be strong in the Lord” so when trials and temptations comes he can put himself into God’s hands and let Him fight the battle.  The new creation knows that God’s timing is always right.  So, keeping all this in mind for today, I am better able to know I’m already a new creation still learning to quit trying to achieve its worthiness.