This morning God solidified something for me I have wished, hoped, dreamed of for my entire life.  In the past several days I’ve dealt with a number of individuals who have been struggling with their sin, relapsed into their sin or simply struggled with the temptations.  I too have my own moments with this struggle as I’m sure every reader of this blog does.

As I was reading in Psalms this morning I came upon 116:10.  It states:  “I believed, and therefore have I spoken.  I am greatly afflicted.”  In the Joyce Meyer’s bible I’m reading she has rewritten this verse to say: “I believed (trusted in, relied on, and clung to my God), and therefore have I spoken (even when I said), I am greatly afflicted.”  She later writes a paragraph regarding the impact of this verse on her life.  She says she was a negative thinker and often stated her negativity.  She confessed that and began to change that behavior.  It wasn’t however, until she began to replace it with positivity that her life firmly changed.  She began to confess biblical truths stated in God’s word each day which she personally struggled to believe for herself.  The first one she states is; “I am dead to sin but alive to God (Romans 6:11).

I was so struck by this one that I stopped, reread it and then God began to speak to me, not about all the ones I’d talked to this week, but about me.  He told me He knew this was my own struggle–I didn’t believe this truth for me.  I then confessed I felt like the father in Mark 9:24 who says, “I believe, help thou my unbelief.”  I have so wanted to believe that I am worthy of the grace of Christ’s work dying on the cross for me and my sin and the sin done to me, but the roots of it still show up at times.  Today I stood before God my Father in my own den and accepted Christ’s healing.  This morning I BELIEVE for me–Christ’s healing GRACE is for me too.  I humbly accept it and I mightily believe it is real.  I had always hoped this would someday come to be real but never truly believed it would happen.  God in His faithfulness did His work today through His Son Christ Jesus, my Savior, my Lord and now my Healer–I Believe!