I feel as though today is a milestone day.  Before I step into the driver’s seat of our car heading to Western Oregon, I need to reflect a moment.  In my first 20 years of living I learned to loathe a few things to the point that I had to keep them firmly hidden.  One of those was the homosexual use of me, the other was the feelings I had about myself fed from my father’s disappointment in what I wasn’t.  During the next 20 years I did keep this all hidden with the exception of telling Kathy when we married and one other friend.

In the next almost 20 years (17 to be exact) I opened up about my past only in a very controlled setting with a few people who might benefit from knowing I had a past so they could address getting help with their own.  In the past 10 years, finally opening up fully to the hurt of my past, God is taking me to a place where my past will become the topic of my future.  I have no idea if it will be my only topic, but I do know He wants me free to do this and I really am free.  Satan did his best to deter this from happening but God’s faithfulness prevails.  My prayer warrior sent me some scriptures yesterday to bolster me.  She said, “We talk about Satan’s strongholds and addictions but I love Psalms 27:1 that says the Lord is our stronghold!  He is much more MIGHTY that the devil or any of Satan’s strongholds.”

Today I sense the Lord’s Stronghold on me.  As I was having my devotions I could sense the storm around me but I was sitting in the eye of it.  I suddenly awoke to the reality that the eye of the spiritual storms we face is God’s Holy Spirit.  Nothing can penetrate the love and grace of this place.  Hallelujah.  As I now go into the next few days to be introduced to a program helping those struggling with homosexuality and other sexual addictions, I know I’m facing one of Satan’s strongest grips on mankind.  However, I now know why in Ephesians 6 Paul says when we are equipped with the armor of God, we can stand in the spiritual attacks.  It is not our strength that allows this, it is the very presence of God’s Holy Spirit surrounding us.  I know this today like I never have before.

My mind wants to take this weekend and jump ahead to planning all that will be done resulting from it.  However, this time I’m surrendering that thought to God.  I only want to do what He opens doors to do.  What I do know from His Presence today is that He is pleased I have joined Him in this battle of men.  I will hopefully be able to daily keep you abreast of the developments.  To God be ALL GLORY!