Some amazing Light began to shine on darkness yesterday which came into full view this morning.  Yesterday morning I was meeting with one of our pastors starting a book study: Jesus The King.  The first chapter is entitled:  The Dance.  In it the author is talking about the relationship God, Jesus and The Holy Spirit have with one another.  He invites the reader to begin to understand that God is wanting us to know our own self in this same way.  To love ourselves as the creation God made us prior to sin and find in Him this love so we can dance too.  Well, taking this chapter and intermingling it with the trauma of the previous lesson from 7-Pillars seemed to conflictive.  I couldn’t make the leap.  It simply brought me to my knees–not in prayer, but in weakness.

As the pastor (Ryan) and I were meeting I began to see the deep connection I was missing was value–my value in my eyes.  I have always longed for value replacing the lack of value I felt from my childhood.  God was hitting me with the truth of my past with the truth of my present and my future.  My value had already been given to me in His creation of me.  The simple fact my dad never supported my value and my brother’s use of me seemed my only value growing up was what Satan wanted me believing so I’d stay crippled throughout life.

This morning I journaled all of this to God and to The Holy Spirit.  It seemed somewhat awkward at first but it soon became very easy.  I could quickly see that The Holy Spirit has been alive in me but I couldn’t see or sense Him because He is felt through value.  My word–The Holy Spirit is Christ’s gift to each of us as we accept Him into our lives.  This is Christ’s most valuable gift.  He enters into us giving us the same value if we only believe.  I couldn’t see this because I could never find the value of me.  I was looking for value in places my dad would define as so.  I was believing the lie Satan had planted in me very early in my life.  Today for the first time I am able to refocus my lens onto God’s Light seeing my value through Him and being a beacon of His Light.  Wow, what an awakening!  You are no different in value if you have struggled as I have.  Don’t quit until the miracle happens.  God is faithful to complete His Kingdom Work and today I can see this much more clearly.  Praise God from Whom All Blessings flow!