Yesterday certainly reminded me just how much being away for a week can do to one’s system.  I had relaxed like I didn’t realize.  But, yesterday reawakened me to a day at home:  worship team, choir, step study, two quartet/group productions and finally home at 9:00pm.  Not all days are like this but this one happened to be the one following our return home.  What I noticed most is just how much my voice wasn’t up to that much singing.  Just like my body muscles get sore when I’m out working in my yard, my voice muscles were very sore last night by the time I’d finished.

Yesterday, I felt really good about God’s enlightenment with the mental picture He gave me of Christ standing in my broken boundary gap.  However, when I was in step study I was reticent to share it thinking the guys would think I’m going nuts.  However, I just felt too many nudges to share so I finally did.  I found it amazing to hear a couple of the guys say they had not ever taken journaling seriously until I shared this.  They want God to speak to them more clearly and hearing how journaling promotes this, they want to be more disciplined with it.  They also said they appreciated very much that I would share something like this with them.

What I didn’t say yesterday about God’s message to me was that I wouldn’t always see Christ standing in the gap each time I’m tempted.  However, The Holy Spirit is always with me and I would know His voice at these times of temptation.  Last night I was exhausted when I got home and was glad  I could sit and relax with the newspaper getting caught up on the week’s happenings.  I found myself suddenly being tempted.   This morning as I was journaling I asked God to speak to me about this because I did not see Christ standing in the gap just as He’d said.  I also wasn’t sure I heard anything from The Holy Spirit.  He reminded me that I heard clearly the message:  “I don’t have to do this.”  I knew instantly this was The Holy Spirit’s message.  I told God it would be nice if He’d scream this rather than whisper it.  However, God reminded me that this is now my choice.  God never removes our chance to choose. His Spirit’s voice simply reminds me I have that chance to choose Him.  So the question is–will I choose to follow “the still small voice of God’s Holy Spirit?”  My answer is, “Yes, Father, I want to obey each and every time.”  I know I will have to take this one day at a time and one moment at a time, and discipline will come greatly into play with this but I want to obey more than anything else!  To God be All Glory!