This journey never ends.  When I started this blog I was going to do so to help readers of my book know that the journey to freedom I wrote about didn’t end with the last chapter.  Little did I know that the on-going journey would have so much teaching in it.  I had thought I was finding freedom as the last section of the book says.  However, I’m finding now a much deeper, broader picture of freedom in Christ.  When I had finished the book, fear was still gripping me to the point of paralysis at times.  A perfect example of this was when the publishing company called me a couple days after I’d received a shipment of books.  The rep wanted to know how I was promoting the new book.  I thought, “What!  I’ve got to promote this story?  I’VE got to do this?”  I wanted God or some man to do this, not me.  I told the rep I’d need to talk to him in a couple days.  His question simply froze me in place.  I was unable to think and all I wanted to do at that point  was pull the book from society.  If I had to do this, writing the book wasn’t worth the cost.

I’ve learned a lot about Earnie and fear as I’ve journeyed beyond publishing the book.  There has been a great deal of darkness:  fear to face.  The book became the reason to face it.  In so doing I’ve found God to be the Almighty God He is said to be in His Word.  I’ve found Christ to be the One True God and Friend the scripture says He is.  Now I’m finding The Holy Spirit to be the fulfillment of God’s Promise of His Gift to us when we accept Christ as our Lord and Savior.  I’m not very far in this present piece of learning.  However, the crippling belief I’ve always had that I’m unworthy of God’s Spirit living in me is pretty much gone.  In spite of unworthiness, I can now accept this Gift with great thanksgiving.  And, in replacing it I now have a yearning desire to know Him well, to hear Him and to respond to Him fully.  I don’t any longer need to fear for He is always present and within me.

God is so amazing, kind, gentle and patient.  Look at all the years He spent waiting for me to come to this place.  Each of us has to come to this reality on our own with Him.  I hope my writing is helping any reader take the risk, stepping out in spite of fear.  God is truly there and His Spirit is as He promises–within us.  Praise His Holy Name!