Yesterday I wrote about how much God is in control and how He orchestrates His Work if we only will quit trying to do it ourselves.  Today is no different.  I awoke early today first because I’m headed to work in a little bit but also because I needed to process a great deal with God before I headed out.  It seems God is placing me in a position of leading our church’s recovery ministries and it is going to formalize as we go into the new year.  There is little difference about anything on the outside.  It is more about accountability and communication chains for those working within it.  As I awoke this morning it was about a lot more than this.

As I began my devotions all I could think were the fears of stepping into this.  Old voices were screaming:  “You’re only doing this to find your importance in your old age.  You couldn’t do this when you were young, why do you think you can now that you’re old?” “You are still human with so many flaws it is embarrassing to God’s Kingdom Work.  Quit gratifying your ego and let God lead His Kingdom Work.”  These are a couple of the fears I had screaming.

In yesterday’s message I wrote that in the book of John Christ gave the disciples power to forgive sin.  These fears acted on would become sin so I gave them over to Christ this morning confessing the paralyzing effect they want to have on me.  I’m also writing them here to confess my humanness to any reader.  God is bigger and so much more powerful than any fear once they are surrendered.  I need to build a stronger team of support in this arena and I’m also going to address this today.

When I started this blog  a year and a half ago I never thought I’d be writing such intimate stuff yet this is where the journey is taking me.  Thanks for being part of it with me.