Yesterday started with going to one of the schools for a leadership team meeting.  I needed to be there by 7:00 am so I did not get to my blog ahead of that.  By the time I got home I was too far into the day.  I actually spent the day, following the school visit, working with some of the ministry issues I’m carrying inside.  I was already meeting someone for lunch for which I need an opinion for our forthcoming recovery ministries.  I also called and talked to one of our pastors to get more clarity about a couple issues.  Later in the day I received an email from the ministry I’m wanting to partner with as we develop these recovery ministries at our church.  The information was timely and good.  Tomorrow after church I’m meeting with the three who are assisting me getting the ground work laid.

Later in the day I had time to sit and relax (thinking I’d take a short nap).  I was taking my two oldest grandsons to dinner and to the opening of Star Wars.  As I sat I was more and more filled with concerns, fears, obstacles, which would keep this new ministry from ever happening.  I only napped a few minutes.  I should have called my accountability partner to just tell someone, but I didn’t.  I kept believing I can’t do this.  Then this morning came.  That’s the beauty of mornings–the sun comes up!  With its light–God shed His Light.  A couple days ago I said I now believe The Holy Spirit lives in me.  Yesterday was a good test of that belief.  This morning God reminded me that Belief and Trust are gifts.  He will grow these gifts if I allow Him to plant the seeds of them within the cleansed body (garden) called–me.  I’m not asked to believe and trust in some concept or intangible.  I’m asked to believe and trust in The Lord Jesus Christ, God the Father and The Holy Spirit.  These tests of yesterday showed me I needed to not hold onto the seeds of belief and trust but to allow them to be planted so they can grow to maturity within me.  So they now are planted.

All of this reminds me of the verse, Luke 17:6.  It reads, “He replied, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mulberry tree, ‘Be uprooted and planted in the sea,’ and it will obey you.”  I do have this much faith and trust and now the seeds aren’t being held, but they are planted so they can flourish into the fullness Christ wants them to be in me.  Boy, do I love Him.