The time of testing is upon me.  Will I choose to live by faith or will I choose to live with the need for evidence?  Of course I’m saying I will live by faith.  That is what I’ve been taught all my life and that is exactly what I want to do.  However, God is vividly  showing me the flaws of my actions when I so often say I’ll live by faith but while I’m living each day I’ll interject my choosing in this one instance and in that one.

God has given man choice.  From the very beginning to time man through Adam and Eve have demonstrated and lived by choosing selfishly.  If man desires it man will most often choose desired things over what is likely better for him in the long run.  The last couple days I’ve struggled with my involvement in the things I’m doing.  Is there any evidence that God is glorified and am I the right person to be doing them?  Why are the others connected to the work not seeing the need to act right now like I am?  Is it because I’m off track with God?  Even things like writing this blog is likely a waste of time only done by me to appease my ego so that I am important to man if I can say I write it.

I’m rereading Romans in my devotions.  There’s much there God has been prodding me to better grasp and act on.  This BOLD lesson of today is FAITH through righteousness.  If I am going to have faith and live by faith I must fundamentally trust what I’ve grown to know as The Holy Spirit’s voice within me and act on it.  That very action is righteous living.  If I live by choosing to only act when I feel ok about it, I continue to live by my selfishness and righteousness is set aside.  God wants me to see the darkness in this and I saw it today.

Matthew 17:20 says even if I have the faith as small as a mustard seed, nothing will be impossible for me.  What I want to be sure about is that the faith I have is leading me into total obedience in listening and obeying God’s still small voice with me.  That’s where I want to act–no matter what man says about it.