Today’s Bible reading is again in Psalms.  I have to confess that this book in the Bible is not one I’ve used or referenced in my life like I’ve done with so many others.  I’ve always read through it thinking it is too filled with complaints and confessions.  Why were the authors of all the chapters always in so much trouble?  They needed to get their lives in order.  Well, today I’m reading these same chapters and seeing myself over and over again.  I realize how much denial I’ve been in to my own complaints and confessions.  I may not say them out loud, but they are thought in my mind and they too often control how I respond to God’s leadership for me.  Joyce Meyer even writes a note telling about her own confession of negativism which she struggled with until she learned to replace it with true confession and then stating a verse to replace it.

Much of my negativism is centered around fear–fear of what I’m asked to do which I don’t think I can, fear of someone finding out how incompetent I actually am when I will fail, fear that this crazy idea of mine is just that–a crazy idea, etc.  II Timothy 1:7 says,”God has not given me a spirit of fear, but one of power, love, and a sound mind.”  Joyce said in her insert that for 6 months she would quote a truth from scripture twice a day to replace a lie she had believed and struggled with just as I am still doing.  I’m going to start today applying this to my daily living.

Remember that fertile garden analogy from a few days ago?  Well, I need to poison those taproot weeds which still exist in my garden so that the soul food God wants growing there can have all the space.  That “sound mind” God says He has given me needs for me to replace the lies with His truth.