I need to stay on the topic of me being a jar of clay for another day. Last night’s lesson in Celebrate Recovery was CROSSROADS. This lesson is all about choosing which path we will follow. Will it be a path of surrender and obedience or to stay with “me” being the main decider in my life? I just couldn’t get out of my head my need to stay believing that I am a jar of clay, I always have been and always will be while on this earth. The jar of clay is simply our flesh and living by the flesh–our old self. I might be a new creation but if I choose to live by “my power” I’m choosing to live by the strength of the dead horse–my old self.

I’ve always thought I needed to be strong so not to be like others in my past. I would stand up against them and I’d stand up against the world if it were to be like them. I needed to be this way–I thought. What I have never realized is that this very attitude was my greatest hindrance in breaking away from an addiction like porn. I will forever struggle with the battle if I’m always trying to resist on my strength. I’ve known a lot about my need to surrender but surrendering for me always came after I’d battled on my own.

Today I told God I am a jar of clay and I believe and know I am. I want His Holy Spirit to live within this clay pot and be my Strength, my Shield, my Fortress and so much more! Along with this–I will stay out of His Way in being my STRENGTH! One more thing that is just amazing to me is God’s Patience in waiting for me to awaken to this truth! What a loving God we get to serve!