Today started quite early needing to have my wife, youngest daughter and my granddaughter at the airport by 5:30 am. They are on their way and I am prepping for today.

Last night in our step study group we were addressing the lesson entitled: CONFESS. In one of the answers I mentioned the therapy I’d had for PTSD. Afterwards one of the men asked me what the therapy was for PTSD and I told him–EMDR. He wanted to know how it worked so I stepped into it telling him about the session when we were addressing the shame in my life. This was one of the most powerful, yet painful sessions in the 3 years I was in this counseling. The amazing part of the session for me was when the session was ending I was told by the counselor to put the memories/pain and shame in the safe container I’d selected to house all of it so it wouldn’t be returning. However, in this session I was so overcome with the weight of the shame I couldn’t move any part of my body. I could barely whisper telling her this. So, she, the counselor, told me to ask God to send angels to lift the weight of shame for me.

I did ask God to send angels, however as time past, no one came. When the counselor asked me what was taking place, I said no one came, but no one ever came. She told me to not believe that lie and keep asking. All of a sudden there were two beings present who lifted the entire weight from me. I simply knew it was God and Jesus. Later, when I thanked God for coming, I asked Him why He didn’t send angels. He said to my mind, “I wanted you to know how important you are to Jesus and Me.” I simply wept at that point. This was the beginning of a major turning point for me.