Today I’ve begun to start again the 90 day commitment to sobriety from porn using the book I’ve mentioned repeatedly in the past 90 days. When I started it 90 days ago I was wanting to mostly see if it was worthwhile to use with clients coming for counseling and with those coming to Celebrate Recovery. What I found most of all was how worthwhile it was for me.

It has been difficult for me to get the victim mentality out of my head as I’ve lived life. It was something I could use as a pacifier for selfish sinfulness. This whole thing I wrote about yesterday, using dad and my brother as my measuring stick for living right, is a perfect example of victim thinking. I’d never thought that through the way God has opened my mind to it now.

As I begin my new, daily walk through this 90 days, I am doing so as Earnie along side Jesus. My measuring stick is Jesus and His Word. I am so grateful for Him opening my eyes to this ugly root in me. How kind and gracious our Savior and Lord is as He teaches us how to live for Him one day at a time!