I’ve written several times about the 90 day book/journal I’ve been using. Today is day 78. It makes me smile in a way for after all of these days I finally catch onto the main message of this book which was clearly given on day 1. This message is that when anyone is wanting to break a habit, start a new healthy habit, change a belief system or address a character defect, it has to be done each and every day. One cannot change anything for a lifetime, but they can change it for today. The reason for this? God is in today–One of His many names is “I AM”. His name has never been I WAS or I WILL BE.

I write all of this because this morning as I was reading this devotional and making my daily commitment to sobriety for this day, I was lamenting that it is day 78 and I only have 12 more days to do this. It was then that I realized I can continue this process each and every day for the rest of my life. Along with this, I realized I’ve known this truth for a long time but never saw its application to me the way it hit me today. The serenity prayer says, “…one day at a time, one moment at a time….” Yet, I’ve not put this to real life until today. I’ve just wanted porn to be gone for the rest of my life! Well, today I accept the truth that it will be gone for this day–that I can do this today with God’s Strength. Tomorrow I will address it for that day for God will be present in it tomorrow. I will for today stay focused on today.

Now I realize why God had this author choose 90 days! Some of us need extra time for His Truth to sink in!

Today I’ve needed to address something that has troubled me for many, many years. It is something which I’d given up ever seeing it come to fruition. What I hadn’t realized is what the effects of burying this within me has done. It has been brought to my attention by a few important people in my life in the past months, but I had felt helpless in how to address it. This morning I bought it to God while I was journaling. I asked for His wisdom and He reminded me that this struggle needed to include Him. Many years ago I had tried to do this but I hadn’t thought it worked so I quit trying. Today, I confessed this “giving up” to God and recommitted to not quitting this time.

I’m purposely not giving any more detail, for the detail is just between God and me and the one I share it with as James 5:16 tells us to do so we can find healing. I would wager that all of us have these areas in our lives. It is simply amazing to me how God patiently waits for us to awaken to them and give them over to His Love and Power to overcome. He never gives up on us and I don’t ever want to quit living as fully as possible for Him!