All of my life I’ve been confessing sin. For the first 60 years I confessed sins done to me along with my own but those sins done to me just left me as ugly as my own. I could never find “cleansing”. When I finally awoke to my confused thinking I let the sins done to me go for they were not mine to confess. That was a huge step for me. I still have my selfishness to deal with and confess, but where I find myself spinning is in the arena of repent. Repent is the remorse for the sin/s and a plan to not repeat the sin/s needing confession.

I’ve said many times that while I was in my childhood I tolerated the sexual abuse of my brother due to his own terrible abuse from dad. He needed an outlet for his own hurts and I was that outlet. Little did I know its consequences. Today I understand this, but I’ve wanted the temptations it leaves me with to be obliterated–yet they are not. I confess this and feel much remorse for it. The plan to stay sober one day at a time is my best plan and it allows me to draw daily upon God’s Holy Spirit. Learning to do this has been its own awakening. God is so Faithful and so is His Holy Spirit within me. Learning to Trust Him and to follow His Lead has provided its own reward–FREEDOM one day at a time!