Well, God is not done awakening me to Himself. Yesterday was a perfect example of this. I wrote yesterday morning about our quartet singing for a couple of places during the day. At the assisted living place, I gave portions of my story connected to two of the songs we sang. This is nothing new, but what followed was very new for me.

I got home last night and found myself completely exhausted. It was only 5:00 pm. Usually by that time I am ready to sit down, but to go to bed? Never. I didn’t go to bed but I just sat in my recliner for the evening yawning and wishing for 9:30 to hurry up and arrive! When it did, I hit the sack and I hardly recall anything beyond pulling the sheet over me.

As I began my devotions this morning I was journaling with God about this exhaustion. He awoke me to something I never expected. Yesterday was the first time I “gave an audience a portion of me”. I have told my story now hundreds of times. Each time I “tell” them the story. Yes, there is emotion connected to it, but for the first time yesterday, I left a portion of me with them.

Last week when Christ entered into the area of my fearfulness, He replaced my need to protect me. I don’t need to protect “Earnie” from fear. I can now let Christ do this. I wasn’t afraid of sharing my story yesterday for fear of judgment, chastisement. I honestly shared my story connecting it to God’s healing love. Yes, I was exhausted from doing so, but I didn’t walk away with any fears–only hope that God was glorified.

I know this message might seem strange, but for me it is a genuine awakening to something God has been working patiently with me about. I love our Father God! He is simply AMAZING!