Growing as I realize I’m a new creation is truly a huge awakening for me. Yesterday I got a book in the mail I had ordered last week. During a meeting I had with the other counselors, I asked the two who are retired, licensed counselors, what could I get to help me understand trauma counseling better. I know what was used with me, but how do I apply therapy techniques appropriately and know which one/s to use? It was suggested I start with this book that arrived. My surprise in beginning to read it was how it impacted me.

As I began to read about the therapeutic techniques, my mind quickly went to the sessions where these were being used with me. In so doing I found myself becoming filled with all the old creation fears and temptations to escape them. I was stunned to find this taking place. I had to quit reading for a moment. In stepping away I recalled what my own counselor had told me when I first sponsored a man years ago who had a similar background of abuse as my own. I could hardly stand hearing it. As I got home I broke into sobs reliving this. I was in counseling myself at this time. I asked my counselor what I needed to do to prevent this from reoccurring and she asked me how I’d prepared for it? I said I’d thought getting help myself prepared me. Then she informed me of how she prepared herself each week for our own appointments. She said it was very hard on her to hear the ugliness of my own past and she needed God’s help to hear it and respond to it therapeutically.

Today as I read more of this new book I will be praying as my counselor taught me. The other big awakening for me is that I no longer am reading and learning as an old creation. I may get thrown back into this world for a moment but I don’t need to stay there any longer. I am a new creation who is learning how to live it out one day at a time! Thank You my Father God!