It is so easy to take this life of flesh for granted. Even though we have abundant knowledge about death and the decline of our flesh as we age, I find myself continuously learning new things as this reality of decline hit our home. Maybe we are all this way, but I just haven’t noticed how independent I am. I greatly enjoy independence, doing things on my own, fixing my own meals, laundry, finances, yard and garden and so much more. What I didn’t realize about myself was how much I expected everyone in my close family to be the same. Independence is a sign of health I subconsciously thought. Not until now when Kathy had her stroke did I realize I don’t want her being independent. I want her to need me and I want to be there for her in all of her needs. Even though the therapists said to let her be as independent as possible, I want to be a mouse in the corner making sure she’s ok. In all of this I also have yesterday’s message speaking to me–Trust and Obey.

I’ve just not had to combine trusting God with life’s deterioration until now. Even letting others into our home to be with Kathy while I’m counseling has been its own mental/emotional struggle. Sharing responsibilities is the right thing to do. Kathy enjoys her friends and family and I can trust them to recognize what she needs and when she needs it.

Today I’m gone for 7 hours–1.5 miles away. My sis-in-law will be here and Kathy wants this, God has already shown Himself in this. Now it is my turn to Trust and Obey. I’ve never thought of myself as a helicopter husband, but…! I will TRUST and I will OBEY.