Yesterday was a sobering day for me. I hadn’t realized how much of Kathy’s improvement was completely out of my control. In fact, all of her improvement was never in my control. Somehow, I thought (without even consciously thinking it) that taking her to all of her therapy appointments would bring back this person I love with all of the personality and actions I have known for over 40 years. 

Well, yesterday the therapist for speech/language dismissed Kathy. She said that Kathy’s improvement was now in her hands. The strategies for improving were taught so now Kathy can use them herself. There’s a lot of detail here I won’t write, but I was winded hearing this. Kathy didn’t seem to yet have her old drive back in place so this continued improvement seemed too much at risk. I wanted to tell the therapist she needed to rethink her actions. I even asked if she actually thought this was in Kathy’s best interest? Once she restated her reasoning I knew she was right, but….

This morning I wrote a lengthy plea out to Jesus regarding yesterday. He reminded me that I was never in control of Kathy’s progress. Yes, I had an assignment in it, but He is the GREAT HEALER. Did I trust Him? I just tear up writing this now. I know better, I just don’t act better when these realities first hit. Of course I trust Jesus. I just needed to get my eyes off of this issue and put them back onto this One I do trust. I have done that now. 

“Trust and Obey, for there’s no other way to be happy in Jesus, but to Trust and Obey!”