A remarkable thing happened this morning as I was journaling. I had written yesterday about the line in the Serenity Prayer regarding “one day at a time” and its connection to God’s Name–I AM. (I’ve written several times in the last year or so about this connection). God has helped me in so many areas of my life applying this principle. The one area I never like to write about is the one I’ve thought was my “thorn in the flesh”. This thorn is the gay thoughts which can enter my mind unexpectedly. All three counselors I’ve seen over the years have said the same thing–the roots of some events in our lives are too deep and so living with this might have to happen. The remarkable thing which took place today was when I asked Jesus what He wanted me to know for today? His response was that it’s time for Him and me to address this item. We will apply the “one day at a time” principle believing The GREAT I AM is bigger than this issue.

This partial quote from my devotional followed the journaling I had just done. It is, “There is absolutely no substitute for personal intimacy with God…it is the key to fulfillment and purpose…the emptiness within us was only ever meant to be indwelt by God’s presence.” As I read this I stopped and realized the time has come where God wants to replace the emptiness I’ve always felt when these thoughts come. Then, after my devotional reading, my Bible reading in part was what Samuel told Saul in I Samuel 15:22, “…Does the Lord delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices as much as obeying the voice of the Lord? To obey is better than sacrifice….” I heard God’s voice in my journaling and then it was reinforced in my devotional message and finally it was told in God’s Word. He wants me to obey by believing His Intimacy is stronger than any old belief or even a statement from a christian counselor.

Today I believe!