There are so many things going through my mind this morning with one overriding one–How do we ever get to the place where our spirit is fully led by God’s Holy Spirit? When we had our meeting last Saturday morning regarding that lesson on Aggressive Worship, I made the statement to the others that for me it would seem to start as a discipline and hopefully move into a practice. Well, that seemed to sound good, but having the patience to wait for the practice–that’s a whole different thing. Of course, this reality of living fully in conscious spirit–God’s Holy Spirit, seems more like a miracle if it were to take place. I have a meeting with our pastor tomorrow morning and am going to talk this over with him.

As my journey continues I can see that my tormenting past no longer haunts me as it did. What torments me today is still being a man of flesh where flesh is always in conflict with God’s Spirit. You just want to be selfish for a little while! As I write this truth for me I really don’t want to be selfish, but when urges hit, they want to supercede anything else. In a counseling session I would tell anyone talking about this that they need to forgive oneself for being human. That’s easier said than done! And, now as I conclude today’s entry, it is why this journey does continue for me. I’m not done with the lessons God has for me to learn.