Last night I got to experience just what I’d written about yesterday. The last session of last night is our weekly step study group. We are prepping for each one’s inventory where they are to acknowledge where they have been hurt and the damage done to them. Along with this, one must acknowledge the hurt they have done to others and the specifics of it. One of the questions we address is what damage done to you or you’ve done to others is in denial? Later, the question comes out about damage done to others. One gentleman said to this question of his damage to others, “It is painful going there though I know I must”. We then talked about the ugly memories he must face and how he has kept them in denial so he wouldn’t experience the pain of doing so. As I shared my journey in this arena, he said, “I want to know this freedom”.

What a privilege it is to be at this place in my life where secrets are no longer secrets. Instead, they are tools of God’s Grace and Love shedding Light into another’s darkness. The darkness is dispelled and the Light gives Hope where there has never been hope. I believed for way too long that I had to keep my past in secret in order for me to have any hope of a “successful” life. Little did I know during all those years how much God wanted to give me a freedom I had no idea about. Today though, I just want to glorify Him for the chance to be a messenger of His Light!