In a lifetime one experiences a great deal. It is always nice to focus on the fruitful and joyful ones for they always make one smile and one’s heart is full. I must say that I am struggling to be there this moment in time. I’ve lost many family members in my lifetime. All of the ones before me in generations are now gone except my one aunt in California who is expected to not live through this year. I’ve also lost many of my own generation. My nephew’s news is regarding a generation below me and I am very close to him and this brother of mine. I can’t seem to wrap my mind around this news. All that one knows falls to the wayside when the news is what it presently is. Mustering faith, trust, belief, hope are the only thing one can grab ahold of and even these seem so fragile as I write this. I want to support my family in crisis but all I can seem to do is hold back tears of grief for them as best I can.

The journey does continue and I know there are these times in our lives. We are in one of them presently and it won’t be going away unless God sees fit to provide a life-changing miracle. I will praise Him and honor Him for He is worthy of this regardless. Oh how I wish….!