Yesterday’s post was a start and not an end. As I had written it I thought that seeing myself compared to Jesus rather than dad was where God wanted me. That was the end of comparing. Well, it was the end of comparing myself with dad. Being very conscious of my own self yesterday in comparison to Jesus was an abrupt reality. The day had a lot of catch up in it for the yard and me and I did all of it with thanksgiving for the time to get it done. My counseling appointment late in the afternoon didn’t show so I came home for dinner ahead of choir practice. Kathy had it ready but was thinking I wouldn’t be home until after choir–original plan. She hurriedly was getting it heated for me so I could eat before going to choir, but not as quickly as I saw it could be done. My tone of voice let me see me in my selfishness and not Christ in His thankfulness. As I went to bed I had the joy of the Lord for most of the day. I needed to confess the selfishness pointed out to me by His nudge. No more dad comparing. Christ wants me living for Him alone with Him as my one and only Idol–Jesus Himself.

It is so humbling, yet worthwhile, living for Jesus. I have wanted to be a worthwhile servant for Him all of my life. But, in order to do so, I need to keep seeing and obeying what he points out about my flesh. He wants all of me–my flesh included to be surrendered so His Light can be fully visible. This journey with Him continues!