God is not letting up on my need to stay focused on learning to let His Holy Spirit be my operational spirit. This topic of spirit vs mind came up in a couple of yesterday’s sessions as well as our Celebrate Recovery’s meeting last night. It wasn’t that I was bringing it up, it was simply ones confessing their inability to control their actions submitting to temptations. Because of this, we talked about the strength provided to us when we submit ourselves to The Holy Spirit and let Him deal with the temptation and the source of “power” behind it.

As I was journaling this morning I was writing more about my own struggle with this enormous change I want so much to understand. As I journaled this morning I told Jesus how hard I tried to live fully for Him and my own difficulties I find when battling on my own strength. He then asked me why I don’t put that same effort into submission to The Holy Spirit? As soon as I heard this I wondered why it has taken me so long to do just this? I know this is not a single event in time. It is a daily submission and sometimes, many times during a day.

Unlearning fighting in our own strength is huge/monumental for me. I have fought a lifetime this way. Even though I’ve known what I’ve written, putting it into daily practice has never been easy. But, Christ’s message today to put this effort into the change hit me like never before. So today, I’m submitted fully to letting God’s Gift of The Holy Spirit be my lead and my strength.