Today I am nudged to add a post to my journey’s blog. I went to bed last night discouraged and asked Jesus to help me understand what is behind it. There have been times of disappointment in my life, but this present sadness wanted to linger. Quite early this morning I awoke to hearing a message. This is what I want to pass along to any reader:

Two weeks ago last Sunday I received a phone message from a gal who use to live here. She and her husband were part of our Celebrate Recovery. She had found recovery and over time her husband did too. They were deeply involved in the leadership and helped many people throughout their time with us. They moved away to be closer to their own two kids who were married and one had their first grandchild. The husband, being back in his old turf, had returned over time to his old addictive habits. He was now living alone having been asked to leave and to find sobriety. This is what I heard from the phone call. I reached out to him and got one long text from him. We set a time for a phone call which never took place. He just wouldn’t answer. This man had become a dear friend and I didn’t want to give up on what I “knew” God wanted me to do. After two weeks it became obvious my plan wasn’t going to materialize. I was so sad “knowing it was the path to this man’s restoration”.

As I awoke this morning, I heard Jesus voice telling me to let Him take this. I had quickly taken the plan and made it my purpose. I didn’t intend to overstep my bounds, but I do get overly eager when things like this occur. I know God’s timing is often not mine and I also know to let Him have His way. (I was overly wanting my way for this). As I journaled this morning I needed to confess and regroup. My trust is restored and regrounded in Christ alone. Satan tried to take this disappointment and tie it to all the disappointing times of my earlier years when my trust was almost gone. Well, he is once again the deceiver and Christ is Victorious!