Worship is a powerful tool that I believe is so under used and understood. I am only beginning to see the critical importance of it. I’ve always loved worship music and worship time during a church service, However, having daily worship incorporated into my devotional time has taught me about “spirit” I never had thought. I use the word “thought” because I have always done my devotional time through my mind which is always thought about connected to flesh. It controls my body’s functions and it also mostly controls my actions. So, as I’ve added worship to my devotional time, I now am beginning to find what it is like to have this time controlled by Spirit which is eternal and is so much more powerful than my mind. When spirit takes control of this time my mind relaxes and releases the concerns it has. My whole body just relaxes and I find rejoicing so easy because I just want to rejoice instead of being anxious over anything. One other thing is that the messages for the day become clearer.
God’s Holy Spirit and our own spirit have always seemed mysterious to me even though I knew beyond any shadow of doubt that they were real. In spite of this knowing, I’ve relied on my mind to understand as best I could. Well, understanding Spirit is far more about what scripture has always taught us to do–TRUST, have FAITH, BELIEVE. This is spiritual language and today this language is growing for me!
God isn’t done with His awakening for me. This morning was another one of them. As I began to journal I was lamenting the struggles of late and the lessons attached to the struggles. I even asked Jesus when these struggles would finally cease? I was utterly amazed at His response, mainly because I wasn’t really expecting one. He said, “When you decide to praise Me when temptations/struggles hit, you will see the glory of My Work. Let your temptations be a reminder to PRAISE ME instead of a torment to run from. Satan wants to use these tempting moments to confuse you, shame you. You are learning that in worship of Me Satan has no place to reside. He sees Me instead of you. So, use these times, all struggling times as a reminder to PRAISE ME. Praising Me shows your complete TRUST in ME. This is what God your Father has been working to teach you.” Today you get it!
I wept! As I began to read my bible I was reading in the last chapter of II Timothy where Paul was encouraging Timothy. He told him to never give up the fight and to Preach the Word. Others would turn away, but keep himself focused on the goal–the final goal. How I Praise and Thank God for never giving up on me. Only GOD could ever take a past and turn it into a time of Praise and Worship! And of all things–use it to His Honor and Glory!
There is so much to continually praise God about. Stepping into praise of God disallows the concerns in one’s life to dominate one’s mind and emotions. It doesn’t remove the concerns, it just puts them into a category of release. I can trust God to do what He does and I’m not suppose to, and for me to see what part, if there is any.. Spending time each morning in true worship of God our Father awakens my spirit to His Holy Spirit. How I love this impact and clarity.
I have always wanted to serve God with my life. I’ve written so many times how this service would hopefully provide a love from God that would take away the images, the memories, the abuse and bitterness of my past. I thought that removing them would be the only way to obliterate the ongoing confusion in my mind, part of which was scriptures that said God loves us (me). Instead of honoring my prayers, God chose to realign them into trusting Him to use all of these memories as tools. Only God’s miraculous ways could ever turn torment into a tool of Light helping others believe their own torment can be healed and used by God.
My greatest healing is not the removal of these memories, it is the removal of the bitterness and replacing it with the desire to share them as needed for someone else caught in the devil’s trap believing God doesn’t care for you. For, God cares immensely! One just needs to allow Him entrance into the darkness of our soul where all of this bitterness is held and holding oneself captive.
I don’t know about you, the reader, but I have to admit my human weaknesses far more often than I wish were true. This morning as I was having my devotions I was reminded by Jesus that it is one thing to confess my weaknesses, but along with confession I must make a plan to address them. Then I was reminded that “faith without works is dead” (James 2:17). If I have faith that I can overcome my weaknesses but I don’t put effort into it, I am simply stuck with the weakness/es.
I attempt to give thoughtful advice to those who come for counsel. And, every once in a while, I am reminded that what I had just said, God wants me to put into my own practice. I then have to tell the one sitting across from me that “we can work on this together”.
As I have added worship music to my devotional time I am finding a renewed effort to confront flesh with Spirit. As my spirit awakens through worship it is accompanied with a passion beyond myself that I know is God’s Holy Spirit. He is the very One who will fight this battle, weakness, for me as I release my struggle to Him through my worship of Him. Worship is far more than singing a favorite chorus or hymn. It likely starts there, but God’s Spirit speaks to us in these times if we allow ourselves to listen. I am a newbie at this, but I want to continue growing for God’s Holy Spirit to be in full control of my everyday life.
HAPPY NEW YEAR! Welcome to the year of 2025. As light is just beginning to show the out of doors, I see the ground is covered with snow. We didn’t have a white Christmas, but we are having a white New Years. The rain and snow are blessed gifts to our area. We need it all each year to fill our reservoirs for the coming year of irrigation.
I was asked during the time our kids and grandkids were here, what I’d want sung and said at my funeral? I told them I wanted that service to be put together with things they wanted. I’d be dead and I’ve always wondered why people don’t put together a service that makes them feel better. As I have pondered this since being asked I’m realizing that a last remembrance is the purpose for the funeral. I’ve never liked the focus being on me for fear the ugliness of my life would be brought out and that’s what people would remember.
Getting to use the ugliness of a past as a tool in God’s toolbox to help others makes one’s past a Light, is nothing less than a miracle. Yesterday I met with a young man who had asked for counsel. I didn’t know him, but I know his wife rather well and all of his wife’s family. As he told me why he was seeking counsel I couldn’t help but identify with it. When he was mid-stream in telling me his story, he asked what the counseling sessions would do for him? I then said I’d like to give him some background on the person he is talking to once he’d finished giving me his background. When he was done I gave him a piece of my own story and what God has done for me. I concluded that this is what God wants to do with his past during the counseling sessions. He smiled big and said that he was really glad to be here.
When my time comes I want my service to glorify the God who brings such incredible healing and purpose to one’s life no matter what story it has attached to it. This is what I want people to remember as they leave my funeral service one day. Our God is faithful to the end!
The holiday time is slowly coming to an end with our family being together. I made my 2nd early morning trip to the airport today and will make the last one early tomorrow morning. Today, those still here will all go to church together. That in and of itself is a joy to my heart.
Living by faith and not by sight is not an easy thing to live out day in and day out. It is just fine when life has a pattern of success around it. But, when something changes that causes you to question or wonder why God would allow something “like this”, all of the faith one thought they had, comes into question. This happened to one of my grandkids in this past week. They were talking to me about it and it brought me right back to where I have been many times in my lifetime. I could assure hem that God is faithful and true to every single promise He had written in His Word. We just sometimes get it in our head how a promise should be played out. It is then we find a lesson we are needing to learn both about our own self and a lesson on Who God Is and how He operates differently from us.
The lessons of life are painful when they occur. Yet, the joy of living out the lesson only to find a more loving God than we ever thought possible awaits at the end of the lesson. God is faithful and good and this never changes.
The beauty of Christmas is upon us. The Love of God has been poured out to us through God’s Son Jesus. In my mind I can see why the Jews of old thought Jesus had come to be their earthly ruler and not a spiritual one. However, being a gentile as I am, I am so grateful God included us in His remarkable plan to redeem mankind for we sure aren’t able to redeem ourselves with our selfish nature being so strong.
The reminder that Satan is here to steal, kill and destroy all of God’s perfect plan, is so very evident. Christmas is such an exciting time. However, I hardly ever experience one where relationships don’t turn sour in someway. Take a step away from the turmoil and one can see Satan smiling at this. However, no matter what Satan attempts, it only takes an apology, a humble sorry, a hug, forgiveness to change that strained relationship back to Godly love. God did a miraculous work sending Jesus to model how this Love of God works.
How grateful I am for this blessed time of God’s Great Love!
As I write today’s date I realize just how close Christmas is in it’s arrival. My kids and grandkids are arriving this weekend and the joy of family all being together will begin once again. What is equally on my heart is the reality of “Christmas arriving”. This babe we call Jesus came to us in the same way we came into this world of ours. The only difference was who had planted the seed of life for Him. I have a difficult time with this reality knowing what God and Jesus knew ahead of time and followed through with their plan for you and me. That was only a beginning of the plan too.
Jesus conquered sin for us so we can have our eternal life with God as was the original intent. In conquering sin He conquered the grip Satan wanted to have over mankind. As I write this I can hardly explain in words my gratitude for what Christ has done for you and me. The grip sin had on me for so, so long is broken. Not only is it broken, it is replaced with the gift of helping others find this truth for them.
Part of what Jesus did while on earth was heal the sick. What a privilege it is to get to participate with Him in continuing this healing work in a healing process we call counseling. We get to plant the seeds of new life which Christ gave to us and Satan wants to kill. I have always loved being a gardener. This is like spiritual gardening and the beauty of blossoms is like none other!
Before I write anything else today, I must back up to complete yesterday’s story. I wrote that I was to step into the day in FAITH only. The counseling sessions were to be experienced and not led by me. The quartet singing event was to be experienced and not prepped ahead of time (the order for it had already been done and I needed not prep any further). The experiences of the day as each one completed itself were amazing. The young men, the wife and mother, the attendees of the concert–all had the same message. God, Jesus, Holy Spirit were so present and I am walking away having had an experience which gave each of them and me new Light.
For me personally, I walked away from yesterday shaking my head in sheer abundant joy. I have lived a lifetime fighting temptation in the flesh not understanding how I was to surrender the battle so it could be actually fought and won by our VICTOR–Jesus Christ. We spend a lot of time getting to know our Savior and Lord. We also work on knowing Christ’s Gift to us–The Holy Spirit. This has helped me immensely. The lesson with the young men yesterday added an ingredient I needed. It focused on knowing our enemy–Satan: his many names and his many tactics.
God is Spirit, Jesus Christ came in flesh, but left in Spirit and remains this way for eternity. The Holy Spirit is His Name–SPIRIT. Satan is also spirit. Has flesh ever won over spirit? Never! Satan uses this tactic with us (me) endlessly that I am a loser who is lucky enough to have a Savior. Jesus has helped me experience the truth that I am worthy and not a loser. His Worthiness is mine and seen by God for God sees Jesus in me. It is one thing to know this, it is another to now walk in the confidence of it letting Jesus Christ and The Holy Spirit fight the enemy who wants to “sift me like sand” just as Christ told this to Peter. Instead of fighting, I Worship the Victor! He has already WON the battle!
Jesus is my firm foundation. This statement use to be something I’d know and even believe. This was particularly true when I work with others for my belief was firm that Jesus always would stand in the gap for them. They could put every ounce of their trust in Him. Then, something would take place for me, temptations would hit and I’d feel helpless with them. I’d dig my way out of them, but would wonder why Jesus wouldn’t do for me what He does for others?
What I wrote about yesterday was a huge piece for me to awaken to as I described in the post. Little did I realize that I had this self-protection mode still going on in me. It was such a natural response of mine I never put any thought into the fact that it was selfish/self-protection. God pointed out to me that this “self-protection place” I’d go to in my mind was a stumbling block (in Celebrate Recovery it’s called a hang-up, character defect or thinking error). If I felt threatened in someone’s presence, temptations would hit reminding me of past triggers, etc., I’d go to this place and rationalize myself out of it–or attempt to do this. It was an area of lacking trust in God that I needed to relinquish to Him. Now that this is done I have a sense of new cleansing–deeper, more pure trust.
There may be other things which God will point out in my future days/years, but for now I don’t sense “phobias” about stepping into situations which in the past I’d deal with, but would do so with gritted teeth. It is truly a new depth of trust I needed to find. Thank you Jesus!
Earnie Lewis 