Yesterday I wrote that I’d been listening to Graham Cook’s CDs regarding “Brilliant Thinking”. The brilliant is reflecting God’s thinking which The Holy Spirit helps us do once we’ve given our life to Jesus. So, I’m going to get personal here. In my heart I’ve always wanted my life to be a reflection of Christ and for Christ. However, Earnie wants that to be recognized once in a while by man so his ego can feel good about “being a reflection for Christ.” I have been really challenged the last couple days by this and here’s why. In starting this blog I thought I was taking a “next big step” in doing what God is placing on my heart to do. I’d written my autobiography and finally, 8 months later, I started this blog site to continue to write about what God is teaching me regarding the topic of being an “heir” to Him.
In the first two weeks of the blog there were a few who made comments and a few who began to follow it. That stroked the ego. In the last few days there haven’t been any comments or new followers so I began to question whether I should even be spending time with this. There isn’t anyway to know if someone simply reads it. What was sad for me is seeing myself as the selfish man I am when my eyes are on the “outcome of my work through man’s recognition” rather than through sheer obedience of God’s nudging. My eyes had shifted to man rather than being kept on God and His purposes for my time.
There is a freshness in spirit knowing I’m doing something for Christ and out of sheet obedience to Him. However, it sure is easy to let my old self creep in. I want to be better at recognizing this in my days ahead. So, not for selfish reasons stroking my ego, but for true learning about being obedient of Christ, I’d like to hear from anyone who is willing to share their own experiences along this line. Thanks and God bless!