Yesterday’s blog was a tough one.  The topic of intimacy is not something I’ve ever wanted to be part of.  The odd thing for me however, remove it from me personally and I love it.  Take your infant child, holding him/her, coddling him/her, these moments of intimacy are incomparable to anything human.  When I do this same thing with my grandkids I am filled with love and compassion.  This morning in my devotions I felt like Jesus was giving me my assignment:  “I am to continue on my journey now facing intimacy and actually being intentional about it.”  I am going to start with my wife Kathy.  We have had scores of counseling assignments regarding this topic but I’ve always looked at them as just that–an assignment.  As soon as the assignment ended I went back to my distant self.  I truly don’t know what will become of this, but I know I am to step into this just as the Serenity Prayer teaches:  “One day at a time, one moment at a time….”  I know Kathy will be shocked when I tell her this morning.  I’ll keep you posted.  The odd thing is that as I write this, I don’t sense the phobic response deep within myself that I’ve always had when I addressed it in times past as an assignment.  Somehow I know Jesus is in this.

This is Memorial Day weekend.  I’ve never been too good at celebrating holidays.  I think the reason is intimacy.  They bring you close to the purpose of the holiday.  Close for me has always been to know much about the topic.  Well, I know I’m stepping into the emotional part of knowing–to feel the love of the topic rather than the phobic sense of it.  One thing I do know is that I’m now game for this adventure.

I hope this is meaningful to someone besides me.  If it is, join me if God is nudging you to do so.