There is an old hymn, “Be Still My Soul”.  Its first verse says:  “Be still my soul the Lord is on thy side; bear patiently the cross of grief or pain; leave to thy God to order and provide; in every change He faithful will remain.  Be still my soul; thy heavenly, Friend through thorny ways leads to a joyful end.”  I have always loved this hymn and God often reminds me of it when I am anxious.  These past couple days are a perfect example of when God reminded me of it.  I know so well the truth that God’s plan and timing of His plan being implemented will disrupt man’s ways.  However, when it becomes personal to my family and me I do just what I did this weekend.  I draw inward, overly scrutinize all I’ve done wrong or not done as right as I should and wonder if God is doing this because of my ill ways.

This morning’s devotions were perfectly in tune with God’s leading in my life.  It stated that there can be peace in obedience.  I know I have a bad habit of doing what I described above when all I see around me is trouble.  I did not in those 48 hours sense any peace, yet by last night the work God is doing in my family began to unfold just a little.  Light began to shine forth.  It had little if anything to do with me, I, on the other hand, simply needed to keep the problems before the throne of Grace until those involved got their own light.  The other thing this morning’s devotions brought out is our need to understand–God doesn’t want to fit into our plan;  He, on the other hand, wants us fitting into His perfect plan.  This is what He was wanting me to do for this weekend.  He was wanting me to see the problem, feel the pain involved and pray for those in pain even though the expression of the pain had many accusations.  Those accusations were expressions of deep hurt yet unresolved with God and man.

God is really working on me wanting me to know He is fully in charge.  He has a place for me in His plan.  I no longer need to try and take charge.  I can fully trust Him.  My heart’s desire is to do this each day and each moment within the day.  I hear–Be Still My Soul.  That is a command not a request.  I love it when God’s direction becomes very clear.