Having been away from home for a week and now getting back to the routine, I am having a moment of reflection about the worthiness of things.  Yesterday, we had to be at the airport by 5:45 am to catch our flight home after missing the connecting one Saturday night.  All was fine except I had a very full day yesterday that was being interrupted.  The step study group of men was coming to our house for a BBQ celebration of their commitment and growth.  I was giving them some information about next steps with Celebrate Recovery such as writing their testimony and how to assist with leadership if they so desire.  All of this went fine.  Two of the guys couldn’t come due to birthday celebrations in their own families.

This morning as I reflect on this I am troubled.  The event is done and that’s just what I feel–it is done.  The entire day I pushed to have all the details ready and I really didn’t take any time at all to celebrate with the men.  Nothing was said or done to acknowledge their strides through this past year addressing their personal hurts, hang-ups and habits which had brought them to the step study in the first place.  This was originally the reason for the event. I was truly operating in my human side (old self)–pushing through to get tasks done and only seeing this as such.  The rest of this week has several more events which are beginning rather than ending.  Tomorrow night is the kickoff of the group called Conquer for men & women struggling with sexual addiction.  Wednesday night is our Celebrate Recovery kickoff and Thursday night we will support another Celebrate Recovery kickoff in a neighboring church.  Friday through Sunday noon is our men’s retreat in the mountains.  My eyes are now open again to the bigger picture–the people–God’s children.  I hope to learn a good lesson from yesterday.  The old me is still present.  I want the new creation God has made to move through this week taking it one day at a time, one moment at a time. I want to see these events as support for God’s children rather than simply tasks to be completed.