If you’ve done the Experiencing God class you know that the 5th step in it outlines–Crisis of Belief.  When we are getting better acquainted with God, listening to Him, building a strong relationship with Him and obeying Him, we will be brought to a crisis of belief.  It isn’t easy to obey anyone all the time.  At some point obedience may come up against our own beliefs.  When it does, there is usually a confrontation of some sort.  This has been happening to me of late regarding my relationship with God’s Holy Spirit.

God’s Holy Spirit is all about sensitivity for me.  Sensitivity and intimacy are much alike.  Both are in tune with the other one/s involved.  Well, my struggle of late has been to grasp the awareness that sensitivity and intimacy are strengths and not weak.  Both terms are vulnerable.  Vulnerability has been a weakness in my mind for most of my life. As a child I was totally vulnerable to my bother and my dad.  I was abused over and over because of this too.  It taught me things that have been character defects all my life.  This is what God is now showing me about sensitivity and intimacy today.  He is directly using His Holy Spirit to do this.

If I am sensitive to people, it means I’m in touch with them.  I understand them, respect them and more.  It doesn’t mean I let them walk all over me.  I have needed to be awakened to this truth.  I have always kept people at an arm’s length so I wouldn’t be too susceptible to them.  I’ve always been friendly, but….  God doesn’t want me living that way with Him, His Holy Spirit, or with His kids.  I can be sensitive and intimate and still be strong.  I know this but it has perplexity in it for me.  God is working this out little by little and I want to find this truth so my relationships can be all God wants them to be.  I’m curious if any reader relates to this?