As I started my devotions today I was heavy with concern for Bonnie.  I was also weighed down with all the weight of burdens I was carrying for some others and also weight I was carrying that I wished others would carry in responsibility but weren’t.  As I write this I see my first glimpse of me being co-dependent.  We probably all have our moments of this.  Anyway, as I got to the journaling part of my devotional time I asked God to show me where I was off track.  Immediately I could see that I was carrying all this weight as the old Earnie, not the new creation Jesus made me to be.  The new creation sees already where God and Bonnie are working together.  I recalled at that moment Bonnie’s words to me yesterday when we talked.  She said that she had been able to “forgive God for taking Randy home.”  In my own selfishness I was wanting to be there with Bonnie.  I didn’t want someone else helping her, I wanted too.  This wasn’t for her, it was for me.

Today I am ready to better help as a new creation.  The other weight I was carrying as I awoke is already gone.  I knew how to let it go once I recognized the fact I was carrying it as the old me–worrying.  As a new creation I can see in spirit that Randy is abundantly complete now and joined with a host of loved ones awaiting his arrival.  In my spirit I can also see Bonnie eventually seeing this same picture.  I am not the one to help her see it, God will complete His work when His timing is right for it.   Of course Bonnie is grieving, that’s the humanness.  God, in His timing, will help her to look up and see His Ways.  Bonnie’s spirit is alive and well but clouded with human burdens at this time.  I and a host more of family and friends will also assist as God’s timing opens the door for it.  Thank You Father.